New beginnings can be sucky.

(I hope.)

I start college tomorrow, it's now the lesser half of eleven pm, I should probably be asleep. I'm not though, I just got home from a late shift at work, and i'm not even exaggerating when I say I would rather be at work all day again tomorrow. then going to college.

I am so not looking forward to tomorrow, I have no idea why i'm dreading this so much. I've been there already a few times, but tomorrow i'm finally starting my timetable. I don't have any idea of what I could be doing if I weren't at college. Working at McDonalds isn't exactly something I want to do for the rest of my life. Or even for more than a few more years, if i'm honest.

It feels like i'm force feeding myself my education, I know it's important in the long run, but I really hate just the idea of it. I'm grateful that I get an education, don't get me wrong. This chance i've been given to further my education and my prospects, is amazing. I'm just not excited for it. Not excited being an understatement.

Maybe i'll go tomorrow, and fall in love with it. Or maybe i'll hate it and try for an apprenticeship. Either way, it's happening.

I'm anticipating my readers input in the comments, any support and encouragement right now will be very welcomed. And if you're going through a sucky new beginning feel free to tell me about it, and we can sulk together.

Why I am the worst blogger yet.

#1 Sometime I forget to write. It's like the words wont come to me, and if it happens once I usually get put off everything for a good few days. (Or weeks.) I get writing block a lot and only write for myself. I never really imagine an audience, so I forget that this blog means a little more than a diary, and consistency is key.

#2 I have blog shame. I am proud of my blog, but it's a i'm quietly proud. I love my little space on the internet but I am really not someone who shouts about it, or even whispers.

#3 What's a camera? Just kidding. I have a camera, it's not a DSLR, its just a standard camera but I don't know how to use it properly still. It would be much better quality, although I don't really get how to focus it up close, even with macro. For now, I like using my iphone, and I feel much less embarrassed pulling it out. "'i'm just texting." I lie, as I photograph everything.. It's for the blog, but i'll never admit it.

#4 I don't get how sponsors work. Who sponsors who? What does a sponsor entail, and why are they so expensive? Honestly, I never viewed blogging as a job until I really started getting into it and reading different blogs. Blogs that upload daily and have a steady stream of guest posts and sponsered posts, but only enough that you don't notice how regular they are. Blogs so put together that when I go through writers block I realise I really am the worst blogger yet.

Any tips on writers block, and anyone who can explain sponsors to me? The comments are below.

What makes you happy?

I completely forgot to do any goals for August, I was too busy having fun. By fun, I mean working or sleeping. Those two activities took up a whole lot of my time. But i'm back! I cannot wait for September and I've got the perfect goal.

This month, I start back at school, and i'm working weekends as well as some evenings. On paper I am terrified of what lies ahead. 7 day weeks full of work, school work and actual work. Since I am neither a big fan of school or work, my goal for this month is to do more of what makes me happy... When I can. 

When homework is done, and my shift is over I can focus my time on stuff I really enjoy doing. Its such a simple goal but the idea is, if I make the most of my free time, my not free time will be a lot more enjoyable.

Got any goals for this month? Big or little, I would love to hear them. I also challenge all of you reading this post to spend your free time, in a way that makes you happy.

Things I did this summer.

Before summer started, I made a list of #20thingstodothissummer, I only managed about ten of them since I found myself preoccupied with work, but the ones I did manage I enjoyed. Summer's nearly over, so before summers over here are three more. 

#4 WALK UP BREAN DOWN. There is quite a big cliff? If that's what you would call it, where I am going on holiday. The first time I climbed it, I was too scared to enjoy it (i hate heights). So I want to do it again. 

The view from the top, I made it! We ended up walking the whole thing and I only got a little scared once, it was a very rewarding experience!

#5 WATER FIGHT. A little water never hurt no one, it's just really fun to soak people, and I have no idea why.

We had a few water fights this summer using the hose, each were so fun and left us soaked. One time I also ended up ruining my fake tan, that was not so great...

#7 PICNIC AT THE BEACH. Food, sea, and sand. All the best things in one!  

Not so much of a picnic, but we enjoyed chips on the beach one evening, they were delicious, the sunset was amazing. Afterwards we gave the seagulls the chips we didn't eat and they chased Abbie down for them, it was crazy, and I have never laughed so hard in my life. 

#13 RUN 3 MILES. It took me like 6/7 minutes to run a mile, three can't be that hard. (Fingers crossed.)

I didn't run anywhere, but I did walk 14 miles so I'm counting that. We walked to Brean Down and then we walked to the fort and back, it was a day filled with walking and chocolate brownies. Way better than any running. The man in the picture? I have no idea who he is, but after I took this we walked all the way down there and further.

More to come! Sushi, lemonade and a flipagram. Exciting stuff. 

We had a bbq? #20thingstodothissummer

I wrote a post, inspired by one of my favourite youtubers, listing 20 things I wanted to do this summer.

#2 BARBECUES. They are perfect, I may be having one for my birthday, which will be fun! Barbecues are a time for good food, good people, and (hopefully) good weather!

I love barbecue food, it just makes summer. If summer were a food it would barbecued, if winter were a food it would be stewed. I don't make the rules.

It was my first time trying peppers, I didn't like them, they just weren't my thing. We had sausages, burgers, corn on the cob and salad. Always gotta have salad. I don't think I could ever be a vegetarian, I don't know how anyone is. I get the whole animal killing thing, but have you ever tasted a burger! I'm hungry now... Burgers and corn on the cob covered in melted butter. The only thing that would make it better is cider. Barbecued food and cider. I just drooled all over my keyboard.

A long drive and a beach walk.

On Saturday I returned to reality, I went to work on Sunday and spent most of today asleep or reading. Tomorrow is Tuesday and I'm back at work again, so my suitcase is still to be unpacked but I have had enough time to recap my week away (and to write a blog post (priorities)).

SATURDAY
Saturday started with a road trip, if you could call it a road trip. Does it count as a road trip if you only have one stop, that could make a trip to Tesco a road trip. But for coolness reasons... It's a road trip. It took us six hours to get there, and we made a quick stop at starbucks, good old starbucks. During those six hours I did a little reading, listened to an amazing playlist and went a little crazy. We settled in unpacked scoped out cute boys (more to come on the cute boy front) then we took a stroll down the front and went to morrisons and bought cheesecake. Everyone loves cheesecake.

If you don't put it on social media, then its not true.

Why it took us six hours, traffic!

Six hours is a long time, enough to make a girl crazy.

Like I said. If its not on social media, its not true.

Sandy toes and sandals.

We went venti, only on holiday do you go all out.

I think she's trying to kill me.

Even the Haven site we stayed on was pretty, a change from Birmingham!

Workin' 9 to 5 and other things.

I'm all packed! Before I jet off, sans plane... I thought I'd leave you with a little post, as I might not find my way onto the blogosphere the following week. But, I promise there will be picture heavy posts upon my return. 

Interesting posts are not my forte which makes you wonder why I allow anyone to read any of these posts, but I like to share, and share I shall. Today you get an insight to my busy busy life, it's been so busy however I have managed to find time to sleep way more than I should be. 

Where I've been.

Workin' as the title would suggest, not quite 9 to 5 though. More like 7 to 3! Less than half of my face is in this, does it still count as a selfie?

And the other things?

Yes you are seeing right. I went to a party with a bouncy castle? What? We all know I was on it as soon as I took this picture, light flare anyone? That wasn't even a filter..

What I've been eating.

Perks of the job right? Mcdonalds pancake with syrup is amazing... Who even needs real food, working 24/7, eating mcds 24/7. (I have not packed my bikini...) 

Accomplishments.

I finished this book! In two sittings, its been awhile since I have read a real book and this was definitely a good read! A good smoothie and a sunbathe definitely helps.

 Discoveries.

This picture, it's perfect. This is myself (left) and Abbie, wearing party hats, and playing with dolls also wearing party hats. A usual day with us to be honest, not with the wallpaper though.

Something that made me laugh.

There's only SO FAR I'm willing to boldly go, if I am lucky enough to ever meet Leonard Nimoy (miracles can happen). I would like him to say this so I can record it for my ringtone. Because lets be honest here, if Spock ever made a porno it would be the funniest thing ever. And the pun wasn't too bad either.

Was that entertaining? Probably not... See you in a week!