The 1 year date-aversiary.

The 27th of December, our date-aversiary... Is that a normal thing to have? Probably not. If you don't know what it is (and why would you I just made that up on the spot), then it marks a year since our first date, like any other anniversary except some people probably don't even remember the day of their first date, nor do they care.

We got a voucher at the cinema for 2 tickets to a film, two drinks and a popcorn for Christmas so originally we just planned to go see the new moby dick type film but then I thought we may aswell get some food before hand.

On our first date we had food in Nando's and then went upstairs to the cinema and watched horrible bosses 2, so for this date we wanted to do the exact same thing! Except then we realised that the cinema we wanted to go to didn't even match the voucher so we never ended up using it.

Josh picked me up and he smelt different, not like his old or new aftershave. He told me his was wearing his other one so he could save his Tom Ford for a 'special occasion' so as you can see I planned all this and decided it would be a thing, Josh just turned up. Then he was wearing it the next day when we went to Tesco's! Tesco's!!! I guess that really is a special occasion. It made me laugh thinking about what we were talking about the first time we made this journey from mine to Redditch. We had never met each other (sober) properly before, was it awkward? What did we talk about?

We had our Nando's first as planned, i'm not a big fan of Nando's but I know Josh likes it. We both had butterfly chicken and then we had cheesecake for dessert. I had the white chocolate and raspberry one and Josh had the caramel one, then we cut them in half and had half each. Mainly because I couldn't decide which one I wanted.

We ended up watching Daddy's home instead, which if you haven't seen it is about a step dad who tries to be  dad to his stepkids until the cool biological dad comes along. It was funny, both Josh and  really enjoyed it! I had a Tango cherry ice blast, I think that's what its called and that was gooood. It tasted like a fizzy cherry slush puppy.

It was a great night, with my favourite person, what's even more exciting is that it's less than 3 weeks till our trip to Rome! Woo!

What have you guys been doing in the black hole between Christmas and New year? Let me know in the comments.

Since when did cheating become the new therapy?

I read an article in Glamour today when I was on my way home, and I couldn't believe what I was reading and here's why...

*In no way am I intentionally trying to bash anyone who has this opinion but when I read this I was shouting in my head as my opinion is such the opposite and I just feel like sharing it. Maybe you could leave a comment explaining why you agree or disagree, maybe you'll change my mind. Just make sure they're reasonably polite comments. This post is in every way subjective, it is my opinion and I wanted to share it so maybe someone could spread some light and dim my confusion on how cheating could ever help a relationship. I'm also nowhere near a relationship expert, nor do I claim to be.

The article started off saying "nice people don't cheat", which I completely disagreed with to begin with. In my opinion cheating doesn't determine whether you are 'nice' or not it determines how much you love your partner and how you consider their feelings and cope with your own towards them. 

Then it continued on to what could be considered as different area code cheating. The excuse of long distance, from business trips to a girls holiday that gives an excuse for a one night stand. Now if I was to take a holiday or work trip away from my boyfriend it wouldn't be more than a couple of weeks most likely. It surprises me that in the short time like a girls holiday that you would even consider sleeping with someone else. It's a 'girls' holiday. To go a week or two without someone you've become attached to is horrible, I know. But I can only imagine involving yourself in a sexual relationship, even if it is a one night stand, would make this worse. You're not going to miss the one you love less, probably more. And if this is your idea of being able to try something new or different because your other half is not around then I just can't see how you would justify that. It does however mention working abroad, which may be a bit longer. Long distance relationships can get tough, but I can never imagine why you would fine someone else to fill the void. If you want someone to make you smile and forget it for the time being then find some friends! If you need the intimacy that you're missing how can you find it from someone else. It's always going to be different and its always going to end with someone getting hurt whether its a mutual agreement or not. Love is a stong feeling, and i'm afraid it often comes with jealousy and hurt multiplied by a thousand. And if you think your relationship is worth it, then why are you considering swaying from it? 

As the article itself quotes from sex therapist Dr Tammy Nelson, "Virtually all couples' therapists have believed since the field's earliest days that no troubled marriage can ever recover as long as there's a 'third party'."

The article also said how we live in an age when you can lie in bed with someone 'but simultaneously e-cheat'. I don't know about any of you guys out there, but if i'm spending quality time with my boyfriend in bed its because we're cuddling or watching tv together, maybe in silence but still will some intimate physical contact. A touch of the hip, a squeeze, a forehead kiss. This could be down to the fact that I don't live with my boyfriend, so when I do see him (which has been every night for the past two weeks) is very important because the next night I could be in bed alone missing him. 

I feel like if you can e-cheat on someone while they are lying next to you in bed, then why are you in bed together. Why don't you want to be there spending time with the person you love. Asking them about their day, or talking about deeper issues which I find is always best to do in bed after sex. I find both parties are always more relaxed and open at this time. When i'm with the person I love I can't imagine being with anyone else, cherish every moment you have together. 

There's also the idea of websites that can delete texts off of phones yours or someone else's, ones with internet access you can't trace blah de blah de blah. If you're deleting texts or hiding your internet then your cheating therapy is obviously not mutual. This is an obvious break of trust, and we all know that trust is important in a relationship. If you can't trust them how can you expect them to be there for you when you need them, to put you first, to make you happy. 

Another line that really stuck out to me was 'actively helping couples to negotiate how to be unfaithful' with a set of guidelines to create 'a pre-nup for your heart not your bank account'. Sets of guidelines about your affairs. This is is crazy to me, maybe it works, maybe i'm wrong. But the idea of boyfriend sleeping with someone else drives me crazy as it is. I would never tell him he could, and whilst he does what he pleases I don't control him I would expect him not to want to. I know that porn is a thing and its other people, but fake re-enacted fantasies in his head are so much different from his hands or his lips on another. 

Apparently the motivation for cheating has also become less personal.Out of the100 women who were signed up to Adultery sites, not one wanted to leave their partner, and most said how much they loved them. I just can't get my head around this one at all, but what I can say is that if you loved them they wouldn't you consider them?

I think the worst part of the cheating is not the cheating itself, its the emotional aftermath. How is someone supposed to feel wanted by you when you are always looking for something or someone else. Oh, its just a one night stand. Its just sexting. Its just flirting. Why do you need it elsewhere? If you're missing that in your relationship the you need to discuss this with your partner and if you can't find what you need, you might need to find someone else. 

Let me just finish this off by saying that if you are a cheat/have been cheated on then i'm not saying you shouldn't be forgiven or forgive someone. Everybody's circumstances, everybodys relationship differs but I would never see this as a solution. 

Call me old fashioned, call me naive, the idea of cheating being good for a relationship truly baffled me.

Friends, fireworks and fairground rides!

It was Guy Fawkes night last Thursday, which for any of you who don't know is something that happens every year over here to celebrate when Guy Fawkes was caught before he could blow parliament up. More commonly known these days as bonfire night, where people set fireworks off and dogs owners hate it.

We went to a fireworks display last weekend and I was really excited. It was a chance to drink hot drinks, wrap up warm, cuddle up by the bonfire and watch the display. What I didn't think about was wellies. It had rained most of the day Saturday night and so when we walked across the field to get to the bonfire we sank into the mud. My vans are still in Josh's garage covered in mood, whoops.

Apart from that we were snuggly and warm as we managed to get to the very front of the bonfire and the heat off it had me roasting, we watched the first show and I ate a cheeseburger whilst we watched. It was really good to spend some time out with Josh and our friends watching the sparks. There was two displays on an hour apart, so after the first one Josh somehow convinced me to go on the big wheel. Let me just explain to you that I don't do rides. I don't do themeparks. I don't do heights or fast rides. When we went to fairs when we were younger my favourite 'ride' was hook a duck. I've tried them I promise, and I can say that after the guy had to stop the twister I went on with my mom so I could get off because I cried that badly, rides just are not for me.

So when Josh asked me when we got there if I wanted to go on it of course I said no way, yet after the first display I found myself in the queue. I tried to back out, I was freaking out but Josh made me. So I got on the ride and closed my eyes. Just a thought, aren't big wheels supposed to be slow? Well this one was pretty fast. Even with my eyes closed I could feel in my stomach how fast it was going.

When we were stopped at the top I opened my eyes and a naughty word popped out before I shut my eyes again. But eventually I got a little used to it and turned around where Abbie and Hannah took a picture as they were in the cart behind us. I cried a little bit as well, but we won't get into that.

Once we were off I was in a crazy happy mood, I was very proud of myself and I text my mom to tell her. I know. I know. I'm lame.

I also made Josh buy me a light up wand that had a tiara on top and lights up.

We watched the second one not by the bonfire, which was cold and a lot less muddy. We saw some one of Josh's friends who he used to work with who's with a girl I work with so that was nice and then after that we had a long walk back to the car since parking was insane.

It was a great night and I had lot's of fun, I hope you enjoy the pictures!

Everyman Cinema & Spectre Date

Josh and I didn't get to spend much time together this week because of work and stuff, so I decided to take him out Friday night to watch Spectre because he wanted to see it. One of my friends and also one of Josh's friends had recently been to Everyman cinema and both gave really good reviews, so instead of booking the tickets for the Vue in Redditch where we usually go, we booked them for there! The cinema is in the mailbox but we decided to park a bit away in the Arcadian so we could take a little stroll through town and see the new Grand Central which is the rebuilt New Street station which Josh did some work on in the office and onsite which is quite exciting! I was very proud.

The cinema is actually next the the Canal and a few other bars etc and to stand outside it was really beautiful. The water looked black and was glistening in the lights of the night since we went quite late. 

The entrance of the cinema was the bar instead of the usual ticket and food stands, and when we walked through the door there was a woman who asked us if we had prebooked tickets etc and asked us if we wanted a cocktail menu! I've never had a cocktail in a cinema before! 

I don't usually dress nice to go to the cinema, jeans and a jumper is my usual attire but i'm glad I did this time haha. They had a range of cocktails that were named specially after Spectre which was so cute! I went for a coke though and Josh had a beer. We had a few drinks before the film started and we also had some pizza which was delicious. Because we'd got there a while before the film started we ate before but the great thing about this cinema is that you can get popcorn/pizza/burgers and chips brought into the cinema during the trailers! 

The screen itself is all sofas! Not an uncomfortable seat in sight.. The sofas were so comfy and velvet with little pillows on with little tables next to them and a little wooden footrest on the back of the seat in front. It was so comfortable that the guy behind us in the cinema fell asleep! 

Spectre was great as well! I've not watched any of the other films, and I had heard from a friend that it might seem a little long if you don't really know the Bond films but I really enjoyed it! Josh enjoyed it a little less than I did which I was surprised about but I loved it never the less! 

I wouldn't go to Everyman just for the sake of going to the cinema, but if you want a nice night out to watch a film you really want to see then I would reccomend it! 

With booking fees two tickets cost us £27, but tickets for £12 each is not bad when we usually pay £8/9 anyway. 

The drinks and food were not badly priced considering how tasty the pizza we had was. It cost about £6 for Josh's beer but it wasn't a small bottle it was more pint sized and a coke was only £2.50 for myself. So price wise its still quite reasonably and to pay the little bit extra is well worth it in my opinion!

Have you been to Everyman/ want to go? I'd love to hear what you think!

The L Word

Just playing about with candles in Asda

I have a few posts running around in my mind right now, all are stories or musings involving Josh and eventually I gave up on something different and just decided to write all I wanted to whether it was mushy or funny or boring because this is my blog and he's my boyfriend so I say I can. *Disclaimer: post may or may not make you heave. I haven't decided how much mush is going in yet.*

It was the 13th of March I think (I googled it, i'm not super super obsessed.. I promise) Josh and I had made plans to go out for food that night, and he palmed me off the night before because all of a sudden he had managed to get a ticket for Cheltenam horse races and was having a lads day. Not only did I not get many (sober) texts that day, but Josh also made me call his friends phone which is a nightmare because they were all drunk and rowdy and he had not planned how he was getting home which he told me when he got off the minibus back to whereabouts I live (preplanned?). He had been drinking since probably 9 am that morning and had found himself back in the pub already. Basically he wanted to come to mine because he could get a lift (hmm) and not have to pay £30 for a taxi. I agreed.

He finally gets to mine and its 11pm, dropped off by his mates girlfriend who he tricked into dropping him off cheeky bugger although she does only live a few minutes away from me. He comes up stairs and kneels on the floor beside my bed looking all daydreamy (his expression not his appearance) and he tells me about his day. He won't get into bed because he wants to go downstairs and smoke (dirty habit which he has recently quit) before he does.

So he's kneeling next to my bed and holding my hands rambling and repeating himself about all the beer he drunk *Disclaimer 2: Whilst he may not always drink responsibly he is old enough* and all the shouting and betting he did. Right now he sounds like a right bloody catch, and its gets better. When he casually says that they also ended up in a strip club. There go my walls, straight up. An eyebrow raise. Crossed arms. He nearly ended up sleeping on the floor. He continued with but I didn't do anything, I only went in because everyone else did.

"If everyone else jumped off a bridge would you Joshua?"

Yeah I was that person. We had probably only been "official" for about four months, and this is the first time he was telling me something like this and I got a bit pissy. In the end I just said yeah okay whatever and changed the subject, because he was drunk and I couldn't be bothered getting into all that and I feel like if he did do anything he was that drunk he would have ended up telling me anyway.

The rambling carried on and then we went downstairs, and came back up and Josh was finally ready to jump into bed. You know what boys are like when they're drunk, I knew why Josh didn't get a taxi home. But surprisingly we just cuddled whilst Josh continued to talk and talk and talk.

I don't have a TV in my room and we normally watch a film on the iPad. but I was enjoying just listening to him talk too much.

Then it happened.

I still remember it quite well seven or so months later. Josh had his arm around me and we were lying down in bed and I was facing him and he said "I want to tell you something, but i can't because i'm drunk". And you never say that to me. Straight away i'm itching to know, and annoying him.

"Tell me, tell me. Josh! Tell me!"

He said something like I don't want to say it in case you think i don't mean it because i've been drinking, but i've wanted to say it for awhile I just didn't know what the right time would be. And I pushed it more, I knew what was coming. I had a pretty good idea of what he was going to say and that I felt the same way.

There had been too many times when we would be laughing or talking for ages and we would both just stop and a short burst of eye contact with big grins gave me butterflies and a squeeze in my heart like the way it did when he put his hand on my leg in the car and would squeeze it just reminding me he's there. Or when he would text me saying good morning gorgeous or how's your day babe. The same skipped heart beat I felt when I saw him after a long week and he would be at my door smelling like Paco Roban (which quickly became my favourite smell) and a big grin found its way on my face.

After a while I dropped it, and we just cuddled in silence. Then very quietly he said and his voice even cracked halfway through, either from nerves or just because he throat had dried up in the silence.

"I love you"

SO there you go, the story of the night my boyfriend told me he loved me. Whilst drunk. After telling me he had  been to a strip club. He's a keeper. No, honestly he is, i'm stopping it here because no one needs a cringy reply from me. I did say it back though, and at least one of us was sober.

I would love to hear, if your L word experiences have been romantic? Weird? Leave a comment!

I only went in for deodorant.

I am in dire need of some new deodorant, so I popped in to Sainsbury's and came out half an hour later and £30 poorer. Umm, how? I don't know to be honest, I did get deodorant so at least I didn't come out without that I guess. While I was wondering that section of Sainsbury's though I just had to pop into the skin care isle. I've been having some dry skin issues, and a few people have pointed it out. Joshua, on a few occasions touched my forehead and scratched the little dry flakes just above the inbetween of my eyebrows. Thanks boyfriend for pointing out my the skincare issues i'm battling very emotionally right now, jokes. So I went to find a nice exfoliator that I can use to get rid of my flakes, even though I was starting to like them to be honest. Loved the way it made the fact I was wearing foundation 10 times more obvious and I didn't look like I just had genuinely amazing skin. 

I did find the L'Oréal Skin Perfection Radiance Revealing Gentle Exfoliator which was on offer for £3 and I thought to myself bargain!! No flakes for a mere three quid, into the basket it went. But I just found it in Boots for £2 on offer so maybe I was fooled a little. Its designed for dull skin, so i'm hoping it will do wonderful things to my over worked, over colleged skin. Probably not, I didn't just spend £100 in SpaceNk. If it does get rid of the flakes, I guess I can let that bit go though. 

 Also grabbed a card and some chocolates for my mom who recently passed her last assignment on her uni course, and officially starts her new job next month. Go momma! While I was buying the good luck card there was a man in the way and i'm too awkward to say anything so I just browsed the magazines while I waited for him to choose his anniversary card. (Happy anniversary btdubz.) I ended up throwing Cosmo in my basket and I've been reading it on the 45 minute bus journey to college and it was the best pound I ever spent, not even twitter can keep me entertained for that bloody long. I bought Cosmo because I haven't seen Company on the shelves in ages, I used to always buy Company, I had every issue for a year, and reading that inspired me to aspire to a career in fashion media so as you can imagine i'm extremely sad its disappeared.

As it's a Tuesday, and everyone knows nothing exciting happens on a mid-week evening when your boyfriend just wants his dinner and a bath, and the tv is shite. So me, the last pages of Cosmo and my tubs of Ben and Jerry's (£2.50 everyone!!!! Except the core one) will sit watching x-factor at home. Which I am indeed watching right now whilst I write this, why so moody Simon? 

I haven't watched x-factor yet because Saturday I worked from 3 in the afternoon till 11 at night, and then volunteered to work Monday from 6 am (yeah, finished at 11pm had to get up 5am) to 4pm so I didn't want to watch it when I got home Sunday and I spent the rest of Monday passed out. I can imagine Josh was not happy that as soon as I got into bed I just dribbled on his shoulder all night until 6 the next morning. 

SO yeah, that's my evening. Please tell me that I am not the only one who goes into Sainsbury's for one thing and comes out with fifty? And please say that i'm not the only working crazy hours at work to pay for my holiday? Make me feel sane! 

15 Thoughts Every Girl has on their Period.

I can't be the only one who dreads those five or so days when mother nature gifts you with cramps and blood, oh the joys. But hey it's okay, I know i'm not pregnant! Here's a post I fancied writing after mother nature's last visit, the weeks thoughts always seem to sway the same way and i'm not the only one who thinks this! 

1. I'm fat.

2. But I need a 1,000 square bar of dairy milk, and a 20" pizza... For myself.

3. What if I've leaked?

4. Maybe I'm depressed... Why else would I be crying over a jelly baby.

5. Can you smell it? I can smell it... What if the guy next to me can smell it.

6. I wonder if anyone's noticed that i've took my bag with me all ten times I visited this loos in the past hour.

7. Can the person in the cubicle hear me opening this pad? Omg. Everyone's going to know that I have what every other person in this toilet probably has.. A god damn period. I better open it slowly... Slowly!

8. I finally get a week off of sex... So why the hell do I want it ten times more than usual?!

9. If I just curl up on the sofa and hide under my duvet with just enough space to stick my head out and watch gossip girl all week will anyone actually notice, because I can't move with these knives ripping up my stomach???

10. Why oh why do pads give such bad wedgies.

11. Why oh why do the strings of your tampons hang just low enough to get covered in pee, is it not bad enough that I have to continuously bleed out of my nether regions for a whole week?

12. It's a netflix night... Certainly no chill, is that his hand going lower, and lower. What if he goes too low and realises my knickers are bigger than Bridget Jones'.

13. Omg, I've leaked.

14. Why do periods cost so much? I don't usually have to pay to keep myself from uncontrollably bleeding from down there, and why did I just waste £20 on chocolate alone.

15. I'm fat.

Funny story that links to number 3+13 I have a friend who used to make me look at her ass every five minutes because she thought she had leaked, and this afternoon I was walking ahead of my friends when one of them asked if I "needed a pad?" I can just imagine how my face looked by the way they quickly backtracked while laughing their asses off. Not funny girlies. Not funny. 

( okay its a little funny)

Leave me a comment below with the thoughts you get thinking during 'that time' and if you are ever constantly thinking what i'm thinking! Periods are pretty gross, but we all have them (according to the stats about who reads this blog) and its about time we stopped shying away from them! 

Baby, its cold outside.

I don't know if you've noticed this, but its Autumn! It's arrived and when I got home from college today, I was reminded of this as I kicked the leaves walking up my driveway. As you can see from the picture, its covered in leaves which really confuses me since there's no trees on my driveway?

I started thinking about all the things about Autumn that really excited, I came up with a little list for the blogities and then ended up scrolling through pages and pages of autumnal clothes on the internet. Not good for my bank account, but hey its payday tomorrow! And students get 20% off in New Look, who could resist?

Since we're on the subject of clothes, I looooooove slipping into silky black tights with cute cotton dresses and ankle booties. It keeps me warm, and I always feel so fabulous when I'm wearing a dress! I love cardigans as well, I have a few that I really love and when its warm but there's a windy chill in the afternoons cardigans are perfect. Burgundy. All my clothes are black/grey or a deep burgundy red this time of year. My particular favourites include a loose cardigan (shocker) and chunky infinity scarf. Also knit?? Does anyone else grow a knit infatuation around these months? Knitted scarfs, knitted jumpers, knitted cardigans, knitted beanies! Give me all the knit...

I bought a hot chocolate this morning, and enjoyed every minute of it. As the mornings and evenings get darker and colder, I couldn't think of anything better than a hot chocolate to keep my fingers and my insides from freezing! I just can't wait till Starbucks and Costa finally bring out their seasonal drinks! They're always my favourite.

I secretly love it as it gets darker and as long as i'm indoors, I love the rain! It always feels so gloomy when its dark and rainy so when you're in your classroom/bus/bed and its dark and rainy outside everything just seems cosier inside!

And to make it even cosier inside, winter is the time the fireplace comes on! I love sitting in front of the fire I love the heat on my back. Because its so cold during these months its time for long cuddles under a thick duvet with the person you love hiding away from the world toastier than ever. The sticky skin of summer really ruins a good cuddle, and makes it hard to sleep. The deeper we get into the end of the year though the easier it is to have a cosy nights sleep.

Then if that wasn't enough, there's the festivities! Halloween has become something I'm really excited for... mainly because it means drinking and eating sweets. My favourite is bonfire night though, I have a thing for flames! Big bonfires, and fireworks and hot dogs and burgers from stands! What could be better?

Tell me what you love about Autumn in the comments! 

I Smell Autumn

I spent most of (all of) today cuddled up in crisp fresh white sheets as rain pounded the pavements outside, its been getting so col recently, the scarves, the booties, my favourite coat. They've all come out of hiding, and the heating bill is set to rocket. To accompany my lazy day  I lit a candle for the first time in forever, I don't like candles in the summer, but in the colder months I love the flame and the warm smell that makes the place so cosy! This particular candle smells like a rich peppery pomegranate (does that even make sense?), if the scent wasn't good enough alone its such a beautiful candle. Its so dark that even though its a very odd iridescent purple it looks black! The cute glass jar, the rope around the edge and the card label all add to make the candle not just a great smell but beautiful decor as well.

On another note, Autumn is settling in. I revamped the blog a little, went for a new header and colour. I've decided to go back to doing beauty reviews and fashion posts, along with little posts about my day. So here's to Autumn! Hopefully more blogging, and lots more candles!

A Long Process

I'm a lampshade and bedside table away from a completed room. (And I wanted a new duvet cover too, but at the moment the only one's I like are from the white company, i'll keep looking for now.) But I am too excited not to share what i've done so far!

It's been an excruciatingly long process, I've actually moved into my sister's room now she's moved out so it wasn't a rush to complete as I still had a perfectly sleepable room to stay in. Which in one way is good because this was a BIG investment for me as while i'm at college i'm only working part time, my mom and nan have been lovely and helped out where they can but ultimately it took a lot of patience and saving.

This is what the room looked like beforehand:

Waaaaaay back in January of this year (see what I mean about patience!), I began the process of painting etc. I used a white non drip gloss from home of colour for the door, the skirting board and the wardrobe that is built into the wall. Along with home of colour's pure brilliant white matt emulsion (or at least I think it was emulsion I honestly don't know) for the walls and ceiling. The wood on the doors etc had yellowed over time so a quick sand down and a fresh coat of paint and they were looking gorgeous again!

I was so excited to paint and start the process of creating my masterpiece, I didn't understand how tedious the task would be haha. It's a good thing I roped in my cousin for help! 

Then a month later in February I finally found a time when I could get my wallpaper up! I went for Graham and Brown Feather Your Nest wallpaper on the walls, at the time it was £19 a roll which is incredibly expensive but I had my eye on it for ages and it was what I planned my room around. When i was looking for a link though I noticed it's now only £12.99! I could've saved myself £15! The pattern is very busy and I wouldn't say its everyone's taste but I fell in love with it, and I still think its incredibly beautiful. My aunt put it up and I think she did amazing! I'm so grateful, I could not have imagined myself getting it up so perfectly but you can barely see the joining lines as it is matched up so perfectly!

The longest wait was for a carpet, not only are carpets and underlay expensive but we have had to put a new boiler in. We had boiler problems since the winter started, but there were so many hoops to jump through first. My mom doesn't own our house, but its also not a council house. So we had to speak to the landlord, and the gas company, then we had so many people come and look at the boiler and talk about the new one. My mom insisted I wait to put a carpet down after we found out our boiler wouldn't be fixed because they would have to flush out the radiators and she didn't know if it would ruin a brand new carpet etc. a week or two ago though the new boiler was put in and I had saved up enough money and I bought a carpet! It's a light grey colour, I didn't want something like a pink colour and my mom refused to let me have a white/cream carpet so that was our agreed colour!

Since the carpet has been fitted though I've put my bed up, moved in all of my stuff and made it personal! The rest has all happened so quickly and I am extremely pleased!

I bought my bed out of the studio catalogue but I can't find the exact frame I bought online, it's been an incredibly long time since I have had a new bed. Since i'm nearly seventeen and Josh has been stopping over a lot more I thought it would be a good investment to buy myself a double bed! I'm really pleased with it and my new mattress is extremely comfortable! The bed sheets are spare sheets my mom had for now, but I think they really suit the room, and I hung the photos on the wall using thin rope and tiny wooden pegs from hobby craft! It's took so long since I started redecorating but I am so close to being finished and right now I can sleep in it and really enjoy how beautiful it looks! I'll leave the remaining pictures of how it looks now and I would love to hear what you think in a comment!

Well at least its not Monday..

I woke up late yesterday. I know what you're thinking, an 8:30 start sucks I don't blame you for over pressing the snooze button. Weeelll... No. I wasn't even in until ten am but I still managed to sleep in until quarter past nine, and I was supposed to get on my bus for nine. I ended up getting on at ten which puts me an hour behind, but I was on the bus and I was only going to miss one (which to be honest I couldn't really afford at the moment but you know) lesson. It started raining about half ten, when I would've been snuggled in my hoodie listening to my psych teacher drone on about repeated measures. Yet I got caught in the rain, because I couldn't get out of bed. I eventually got to college and I went to get my id card out of my bag... But there was no id card in my bag. Had I just picked up my leather jacket, I would not have got so wet in the rain and I could be walking through the gates right now and straight to English which while extremely challenging is quickly becoming my favourite lesson. I told the security guard and he sent me home. Sent me home! I have my photo on the school system with all my details, and he sent me home! (Bearing in mind to get to college I have to get on the bus for nearly 40 minutes and then walk through the park for another 15.) So I walked back through the rain to the bus stop. The upside is that I had just got paid, so I grabbed myself a salted caramel hot chocolate before I got on the bus again for another hour journey. I got home put my jacket in the tumble dryer for ten minutes and then headed back to college. My newly dry jacket got soaked again, but at least I had my leather one this time. I got to college at half one, just in time for my Law lesson, which wasn't too boring, and my second English lesson of the day. In English we read some short stories and prepared for my creative writing coursework. To conclude, it was a pretty rubbish day full of bus journeys, rain, and college... But at least it wasn't Monday. I left the house at ten and got to college at half one, that's got to be a record!

On the plus side I have a four day weekend and my birchbox just popped through my letterbox! It's looking very promising as well.

Celebrating

What better way to celebrate surviving two weeks of college then... Nando's! It was delicious, we ordered a lot of food since there was so many of us. We also ended up in Sutton Coldfield which is about an hour and a half away from where I live?? It was so good to just hang out with some friends and laugh. College has been really stressful, it's a lot harder, and it's a lot more hours. Despite having less lessons, the day is much longer, and the homework has been piled on since day one. On Wednesday I went to college, went straight to work, did my homework on my break, and then finished it when I finally got home from work at 11, slept and did the same thing again the next day. It's crazy, but i'm slowly adjusting. And the nando's wasn't half bad too. ;)

Why I am the worst blogger yet.

#1 Sometime I forget to write. It's like the words wont come to me, and if it happens once I usually get put off everything for a good few days. (Or weeks.) I get writing block a lot and only write for myself. I never really imagine an audience, so I forget that this blog means a little more than a diary, and consistency is key.

#2 I have blog shame. I am proud of my blog, but it's a i'm quietly proud. I love my little space on the internet but I am really not someone who shouts about it, or even whispers.

#3 What's a camera? Just kidding. I have a camera, it's not a DSLR, its just a standard camera but I don't know how to use it properly still. It would be much better quality, although I don't really get how to focus it up close, even with macro. For now, I like using my iphone, and I feel much less embarrassed pulling it out. "'i'm just texting." I lie, as I photograph everything.. It's for the blog, but i'll never admit it.

#4 I don't get how sponsors work. Who sponsors who? What does a sponsor entail, and why are they so expensive? Honestly, I never viewed blogging as a job until I really started getting into it and reading different blogs. Blogs that upload daily and have a steady stream of guest posts and sponsered posts, but only enough that you don't notice how regular they are. Blogs so put together that when I go through writers block I realise I really am the worst blogger yet.

Any tips on writers block, and anyone who can explain sponsors to me? The comments are below.

Workin' 9 to 5 and other things.

I'm all packed! Before I jet off, sans plane... I thought I'd leave you with a little post, as I might not find my way onto the blogosphere the following week. But, I promise there will be picture heavy posts upon my return. 

Interesting posts are not my forte which makes you wonder why I allow anyone to read any of these posts, but I like to share, and share I shall. Today you get an insight to my busy busy life, it's been so busy however I have managed to find time to sleep way more than I should be. 

Where I've been.

Workin' as the title would suggest, not quite 9 to 5 though. More like 7 to 3! Less than half of my face is in this, does it still count as a selfie?

And the other things?

Yes you are seeing right. I went to a party with a bouncy castle? What? We all know I was on it as soon as I took this picture, light flare anyone? That wasn't even a filter..

What I've been eating.

Perks of the job right? Mcdonalds pancake with syrup is amazing... Who even needs real food, working 24/7, eating mcds 24/7. (I have not packed my bikini...) 

Accomplishments.

I finished this book! In two sittings, its been awhile since I have read a real book and this was definitely a good read! A good smoothie and a sunbathe definitely helps.

 Discoveries.

This picture, it's perfect. This is myself (left) and Abbie, wearing party hats, and playing with dolls also wearing party hats. A usual day with us to be honest, not with the wallpaper though.

Something that made me laugh.

There's only SO FAR I'm willing to boldly go, if I am lucky enough to ever meet Leonard Nimoy (miracles can happen). I would like him to say this so I can record it for my ringtone. Because lets be honest here, if Spock ever made a porno it would be the funniest thing ever. And the pun wasn't too bad either.

Was that entertaining? Probably not... See you in a week! 

I'm a people watcher.

What a creepy title, I was gonna call this Addictive Older Siblings, but that's possibly worse. I like to watch people's actions, when i'm bored and out and about I'd rather watch other people busy themselves, then busy myself. So it's no surprise that this year I've found myself so into Big Brother it hurts... This post is basically just me bitching about it so feel free to leave.

I can not believe Jale was evicted on Friday, I was sure Ashleigh was going to go, and I was hoping as well. I really do not like her, she gets into way too many arguments with Helen, and while she is only defending herself I'm sure she loves it. She's a game player, she admitted it in the diary room. She even said she was glad her evil plan was coming together.

What's up with how horny the housemates are, I get Steven and Kim are completely in love, or at least Steven is. But having sex with cameras around? No. They've only known each other a bloody month!

I don't really bother with Mark, because I just don't like him, I don't like Chris, Christopher or Ash either. So basically over half the house. I love Steven, even if I feel he's a bit naive about Kim. I think Danielle does more than her fair share of bitching with Ashleigh, but honestly I feel like she's a good person. I think Winston's funny, but I can't get over his little comment when Jale jumped in the pool, I think I am so like Jale that I'm a bit reluctant to forgive him. I'm kind of a little scared of Helen a little, her personality reminds me of the girls in my school who I avoid at all costs. When she whispered about Jale being a slug and then said it louder as she walked away so Jale could here it, I was appalled, she was so rude. She's not so bad now, she focuses on Ashleigh a lot, but honestly I'm not surprised. I guess I hold a lot of grudges from the earlier weeks... Especially ones concerning Jale. I like Kim, but not all of the time, and I really can't be bothered with Marlon, even though I think everyone's reaction to Marlon pressing that bloody button was ridiculous.

I think that's it... I don't even know.

Sweet Sixteen

Not so sure about the sweet part, I eat a lot of sugar though so I probably have super sweet blood. A vampires dream I assume.

Wow. How quickly did we get off track there, I start writing a post about my birthday and end up talking about vampires. In one sentence.

Back on track however, it was my sixteenth birthday on Wednesday, I didn't think I'd make it this far. When I was naughty my mom would always say "you'll never make it to 9". (Or any other age under 13, nine just seemed to fit.) Well, guess what Mom. I made it. And a bit.

Back on track (again). Because I turned sixteen, and my New Years resolution to do more meant I made a lot more friends, I did what every other teenager does on their birthday. I threw a party.

It was great, it was in a big function room, people auditioned for invites, Justin Bieber performed and I got a car. Ha, I wish, I can't even drive until I'm 17. I've just been watching way too much MTV.

I did throw a party though, and it was amazing. It was in my garden, my iPod was the only performer, my invite was in form of a text, and I didn't get a car. (I did however get a £20 gift card for River Island which is way better.) It was still perfect in every way. I had such a good time, and pizza, and I know everyone else enjoyed themselves too.

The last of my guests didn't leave until gone 2am, and seven of them stopped over. We actually watched High School Musical (16 or 10?) and then when that was over only four of us were awake, and even though it was nearly 5 in the morning; we actually cleared up outside because it was a mess and then sat on the trampoline with some blankets and talked. It was perfect.

I bet you are itching for photos, most of you have probably already scrolled to them and skipped this long ass post. Or maybe, after you've looked at the photos first, and now you're reading the writing. Who knows, but I've kept you waiting and here you are....

I love this candid.

Group photo

Olivia was so excited, she got a double chin.

My favourite picture.

Chillin.

Yes.

You can imagine this mess x100 after we were finished.

Alison.

Blurry, but what a perfect fb cover photo?

Lizzie.

I love candids.

The pizza party to end all parties..

This picture has been in my drafts for a very long time. I finished school on June 13th and finally getting round to writing this post July 3rd. Anyway, on Friday the 13th we had our last maths exam (which actually wasn't our last but we were going on study leave that day) and bolted out of school. I headed down to the park with a few of my friends and we listened to some music and drank a little. Then at 3, we met everyone else in my year group and a few more of my friends at a different park.

That was a lot of fun, I ended up speaking to a lot of people in my year who I had never spoke to for longer than a few minutes, and more to people who I see all the time but it's always small talk. Which was nice. We didn't stay there for more than an hour or two and afterwards I went with the other friends we met at the second park, and we jumped on the bus to Licky Hills, another park.

We just walked through here which took us forever because it was way bigger than any of the other parks, and at the other end we found a pizza place. We ordered a pizza and sat in the park to eat it. If you haven't seen any of the shrek memes then how did such a normal person stumble upon this blog? We raised our pizza to shrek like the typical kids who spend all day on tumblr, and have become insane.

I had such a good day, minus the sunburn. And I learnt that my bus home doesn't run after 8pm, yeah.

Any summer evenings you've got to share? I would love to hear them.

Prom

A week ago tomorrow night, was my prom night! It was amazing. I got my hurr did, and my makeup done for it, and I felt like a princess. I was crazily excited for prom, and it was exactly what I expected it to be. Everyone was dancing, and taking pictures all night and it was perfect. We had it at the motorcycle museum, and there was a red carpet, and a filming crew. We went in a range rover evoke, and holy moly was it nice!  Because our school are part of a tv program so that was kinda weird! We had a three course meal which consisted of soup, chicken with veggies and potatoes, and a meringue with ice cream and raspberry sauce. It was delicious. I had an open evening at college today and most of the girls were having their prom today or tomorrow, so if you've had/are having your prom I hope it was great/goes great. xo

What a photobomb in the background.

Selfie!

Desert.

Name cards, and mocktails. We were feeling super fancy! 

How napkins should be worn.

See that balloon? After this photo we went down stairs and hid so we could suck the helium out of them and sit down while our feet hurt.

With my form teacher!