I start college tomorrow, it's now the lesser half of eleven pm, I should probably be asleep. I'm not though, I just got home from a late shift at work, and i'm not even exaggerating when I say I would rather be at work all day again tomorrow. then going to college.
I am so not looking forward to tomorrow, I have no idea why i'm dreading this so much. I've been there already a few times, but tomorrow i'm finally starting my timetable. I don't have any idea of what I could be doing if I weren't at college. Working at McDonalds isn't exactly something I want to do for the rest of my life. Or even for more than a few more years, if i'm honest.
It feels like i'm force feeding myself my education, I know it's important in the long run, but I really hate just the idea of it. I'm grateful that I get an education, don't get me wrong. This chance i've been given to further my education and my prospects, is amazing. I'm just not excited for it. Not excited being an understatement.
Maybe i'll go tomorrow, and fall in love with it. Or maybe i'll hate it and try for an apprenticeship. Either way, it's happening.
I'm anticipating my readers input in the comments, any support and encouragement right now will be very welcomed. And if you're going through a sucky new beginning feel free to tell me about it, and we can sulk together.