Sunday 7 September 2014

New beginnings can be sucky.

(I hope.)

I start college tomorrow, it's now the lesser half of eleven pm, I should probably be asleep. I'm not though, I just got home from a late shift at work, and i'm not even exaggerating when I say I would rather be at work all day again tomorrow. then going to college.

I am so not looking forward to tomorrow, I have no idea why i'm dreading this so much. I've been there already a few times, but tomorrow i'm finally starting my timetable. I don't have any idea of what I could be doing if I weren't at college. Working at McDonalds isn't exactly something I want to do for the rest of my life. Or even for more than a few more years, if i'm honest.

It feels like i'm force feeding myself my education, I know it's important in the long run, but I really hate just the idea of it. I'm grateful that I get an education, don't get me wrong. This chance i've been given to further my education and my prospects, is amazing. I'm just not excited for it. Not excited being an understatement.

Maybe i'll go tomorrow, and fall in love with it. Or maybe i'll hate it and try for an apprenticeship. Either way, it's happening.

I'm anticipating my readers input in the comments, any support and encouragement right now will be very welcomed. And if you're going through a sucky new beginning feel free to tell me about it, and we can sulk together.

6 comments:

  1. I start college on 1st of October and I'm really nervous as it's something new for me. Great post and keep up the good work.

    LEJA

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  2. I'm feeling the same way, I started uni two weeks ago and every week I dread going there.
    Probs I need to start making friends

    itsjustshalay.blogspot.com

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    1. Friends are key to feeling more at home, making them is easier said then done sometimes though!

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  3. As someone who went through it, I can totally see why you can be put off by it. But when you do finish, eventually it will be such a great accomplishment, and a true testament of your character. Good Luck and wish you the best.
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    1. I know! I just need to put mind over matter!

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